After thinking through about what you said last night, perhaps you're right. I should not have gotten inflamed by your entry about whatever you reflect about that person, and it's totally none of my business. Again, if you ever bother to read that email, it's the first reason that impelled me to write that entry. Yes, it may seem like an ordinary statement to you, your heartfelt words maybe, but when someone who is the subject reads that statement, it's not that ordinary after all. I shan't try to explain further because of certain reason that I do not want to make it known, but I know my words were harsh and unforgiving too.If it's gonna make you feel any better, take it that I'm trying to poke my nose into everybody's business. I'm not trying to be noble either, just that I'm so used to having to take the blame for some shit stuff like this.____________________________________________________________Flying off in 6 hours time! I have yet to finish packing. Not really looking forward to this trip UNFORTUNATELY. If any of you happen to have read my last night's entry (which I deleted), I'm still trying to find terms with it. Perhaps it's not that bad not to enjoy that privilege (is it?!) But my friends are somewhat glad to have me still around, after all I won't be PS-ing them. Then again, I'm still hoping for the best.It's really sad. I'm trying to mend the holes, but she's trying to pull the shirt away (she just wouldn't let me do it). If you insist that the holes remain as they were, then so be it. I'm already trying to be very regretful. I have nothing else to say.
Finally, after 5 weeks of mentally-torturing training, the *** course has ended. While we are preparing for the next phase, set to take place soon, present friendships will be stronger, with Khatib Bongsu being repeated over and over again! lol.Although I honestly dislike some coursemates (those inactive personnel), I kinda of miss them already after the closing ceremony. Staying overnight and going out for late night supper after 12 midnight (although not allowed to do so), will no longer happen, as far as Singapore is concerned. Of course, hope that it'll be more fun there.Monday night being the last night, and a night after a hectic day turned out to be a Tour-round-Western Singapore. Purpose: just to find a place to play LAN. WTH! Ok, we almost went to Cineleisure for Valkyrie. Keep thinking of Wagner's work, dunnoe why.Good news: UIUC has allowed me to submit my financial certification after admission notification!! Yeay! So I have 4 choices now! Sweet!And, I really need to start packing tonight. Looking forward to the "holiday"? Er, yes and no. But I'm hoping A__C comes later man. Not really ready for it just yet.
Firstly, a late Happy Valentine's Day! It's a lonely Feb 14 again... Like many other fellow army mates. Sad, then again, it's an opportunity to be self-indulgent, problem-free from a partner. Many a times, it's always easy to say maintaining a problem-free r/s, but more often than not, even going to chiong to celebrate your ex's birthday becomes a seemingly big problem. Talk about being understanding and all, it's all for the sake of making each other feel at comfort. Nothing but lies when such situations put your promises to the test.Speaking of which, I was totally disgusted by someone last night. Firstly, I cannot understand how resentful that someone still is until now. It's been so long, yet that someone can't put things aside. It's really unfortunate for the other person to be cursed at every time that someone is reminded of the other person. Secondly, certain things do not necessarily have to be made public. If you really detest something, make it a point to that person privately. Not as though that person will not understand (because the only person who is not understanding is you). Do you know that it's rather hurting to be reading such comments? Yes, it may seem subtle to you, but did you put yourself in that person's shoes? How would you be feeling if you were that person? You, being innocent as I have thought you still remained, proved me wrong. It's a good thing you revealed your true self. Totally revolting.Shag week this very week; a lot of planning. Yes, I'm looking forward to next Friday, and yea, the last 2 days definitely! BUT, thinking about how time flies, it'll be April soon! Jitters babe! Went back to camp to pack my stuff, the Dy bunk is a total pig sty. Honestly! I see lizards, beetles, dust, spider webs, trash everywhere, food everywhere. Oh gosh. It's a total facelift before I left.Oh. My phone died on me! F*** Just months before my ORD, it dysfunction-ed. So, I'm gonna get another phone later. No, it's not gonna be expensive since I'm just 4 months to my civilian life. Speaking of which, it's 4 months left! ARGH!I just decided to cut down my choices to 3. Reason being I can't meet a particular requirement. I'm still hoping I can play around with the requirement though, to make things work. I'm rather into that university. And, the WES evaluation is done! Wait, let me enjoy the feeling. *overjoyed*.... I've been waiting for like 4 months! I applied since Oct 12, exactly 4 months later, the report is completed! Thanks ah, americans...Not that I've got something against americans, but a few events have made me lose faith in their working attitude and efficiency. Sometimes I feel we asians have more pride in our work. Then again, I hope my perception will change with positive experiences in future.
I'm finally updating. (not as though a lot's been missed from my boring and monotonous life)Reason for not updating last week: too busy preparing for this mon's test.So,... I'm still on course, so it's still working till late everyday. And of course late night supper. that never fails with a vehicle. Went to different places in Jurong area to eat supper. Think we've visited most of the late night stalls.Oh, saw Jessica that day. I was queuing for Nasi Lemak and was so engrossed with how the stall uncle was preparing the food. Then I felt someone standing beside me. The next moment someone tapped on my shoulders. Wa! So late, 0030hrs, and you're still around?! And in white top and white pants somemore! And you let down ur hair!Anyways, the test on Thursday made me feel stupid. I can say with brutal honesty, it's one of the few tests that have made me feel stupid. With hindsight, I realised the reason for not completing the test: poor time management and wrong emphasis.Haven't had good appetite these few days. Think it's because the recent habit of speaking lunch. But I don't even feel hungry at dinner. I'm just "ok, time to eat, let's go." Most of the time I can just do away with both lunch and a little dinner. And the worse is, I'm not having breakfast these days (when I'm staying in). Really testing my JCC survival capability...Alright, I've sent 3 applications already! That's good. Still killing my brain cells for the last 3 essays! And I have no idea how to fill up that section in UMich's application!!!!!more updates later. Need to do something now...
