Thank you all for coming, and celebrating my step into ADULT with me! And not to forget the many presents that you all brought along.

It wasn't as I expected actually, to a certain extent. In fact, only the seating plan wasn't. Ok, I had this seating plan because there was this super irregular number that I have to divide by 12, so the only way I could put everyone together was to devise a fixed seating arrangement. Turned out that I had to resort to "contingency plans" which I didn't prepare... lol...

Glad that Poly mates could still click with each other; the last time some of us met was at Deren's birthday party, like 2 months ago... Pianophiles friends too, almost half a year ago...

Of course, thanks to the hyperactive bunch of army friends, the dinner couldn't have been any noiser! But! I absolutely enjoyed the noise! Ironic...

Great food, great company, great atmosphere, what more can I expect of a 21st birthday dinner?!

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Received birthday wishes from 2 unexpected ladies last night. Let's just call them A & B respectively. I received A's wishes earlier, and B's wishes during dinner through a friend. Er, and I was joking when I asked my friend why she couldn't sms me directly? Because I thought it was a joke they've been playing on me since the start of the dinner.

Was damn happy when I got A's wishes, B's too. But somehow, I felt lost. Perhaps you could say that I felt infatuated towards B, and the joy was short-lived. I wasn't sure if I really liked B, but I was sure the infatuation wouldn't hold for long. 

So who do I really like? A.

BUT! It's so difficult to tell her. She seems super impassive towards what I say, she seemed to be not-interested. Our conversations can't hold out long, perhaps "I don't understand you sometimes" really is the reason. I'm not sure how I can let her know how I feel, after all, it failed a few years ago, blame in on my immaturity. The secret admiration for her has never been lost, NEVER. There's so much apprehension. Will she be able to accept me again? Will things work out? How will I react to her rejection (if it was to turn out that way). It's been hard to finally get back in touch with her, I'm not sure if I'm ready to take the risk to ruin our friendship. I've tried not to think about it, but she's always there.... Give me a sign, tell me what to do.