A seemingly long week has passed...
Got my CSB!!! 32km, not that tough, not that easy either... Everybody said it's easy, no pride... But what the hell... And that everybody is complaining about abrasion, blisters, appearing so injured as a result of the route march. Sleep walk almost the whole journey, and feeling damn tired because it's an overnight march... No pride, then why bother to do it? Because monkey see monkey do? Bottom line is, don't brag in front of others, and act like a freaking pussy backstage. Hypocritical jerks...
it is not about what you leave behind, but what you gain in the days ahead. Saw this in Hatta's room... Saw this for the first time when I first set foot in Tekong... Still don't really understand it fully. There's one more "Everyday can be a good day," something like that, "if you tell yourself, 'Today is going to be a great day!'"... WHAT THE FUCK?! That was Hatta's response! haha... I must say, he's one of the more honest friends around.
The weather's been quite warm lately... Been bathing more than a couple of times a day... Wonder when it's gonna go cooler...
Remembered a question that was raised to me during my interview that night. "Do you think your introverted personality is the result of you not having a girlfriend?" I was thinking, "FUCK YOU!" I'm not an introvert, neither am I an extrovert. And I have my reason for not having a girlfriend. Bloody hell... What kind of question was that?...
I'm left with a year, prolly a little more before I leave for my tertiary education... And I really don't see a point in having a girlfriend and then saying goodbye. I know myself well enough, I doubt I'll be able to keep a long distance r/s. Anyway, I haven't got much time to indulge myself in a time-exhausting commitment. Just wanna keep fit right now, so that I will be able to survive alone out there soon, without my family there to remind me to take care of myself, or see the doctor when I'm not feeling well.
Sometimes I really don't bother, be it limping for some reasons, or cough till i get chest pains, or some infections because of some bites. I really can't take care of myself... haha... Although I believe I can manage my own laundry pretty well. Sometimes I wonder if I'm ready to go abroad to study. And army's been doing quite a fair bit of training for me.
Was watching the 1st installment to the 2nd season of "The Amazing Race Asia" this afternoon, and I'm once again dreaming of joining. It's like there's this calling for me. And I've no idea why my friends think I'm crazy having this thought. C'mon, where's that fighting spirit man!
Oh! Speaking of which, the 1 million sit-ups challenge is postponed! Yeay! My salvation!!! I'm spared the torture of doing 1,000 sit-ups!!! Nothing to be over-joyful about though.
Hopefully ZK can have his leave next week... We've been wanting to meet up, but time's the problem...
I don't know what to blog about, so that's it for now.
